Hwello! as i was saying if my life is a video, a sexy one thats for sure. can i press rewind? LOL!

why am i saying this? i've just realised that my life is getting more hectic after O levels. Yeah. much more hectic then i was doing the O levels. how i wish Secondary 5 life did not end that fast. I really did not see this coming so quick.


I am losing everything. My money ( no more allowances, besides the transfers i give =X ) , my friends ( cannot go out play ), and most importantly ( my life ). I am pissing so many people off right now. I know everybody will hate me for saying things like, I am "S-O-R-R-Y". They will know what i mean. LOL!

You may think i am coming up with all sort of stupid reasons not to meet up. But the fact is that i am not coming up with reasons or excuses, it is the fact.

I am always late, i will never be early. yeah. Cause i am fat, useless, not efficient, not effective, sometimes a bit retarded, spastic you can call me that too. how about stupid? free to call me names. cause that is what i am. LOL.

Maybe i am too childish, maybe 10 years down the road, when i read this blog post i blogged about. I feel say " why am i so fucking childish when i was 17. LOL!" really, maybe i would say that. perhaps. . . . . . . . .

I gain so much knowledge that i do not know. i am moving faster then anyone whom is the same age as me, i presume. can anyone prove me wrong?

Unforeseen circumstances forces me to the corner, with no leeways. I felt so stuck whenever i face with my work and my friends. If i were to be working, never employ me to be a HR manager, HR means, Human Resource. Because i have poor human resource management. i will just screw your company up, like what i am doing right now to my life. *screwed*

LOL. there will be still many chances for me to piss my friends off, and i raelly pray that will never happen :D really. like on the 28th Nov.

*oh lord heavenly father, please bless me with the power to make changes, and affect people's life in a positive way.*

hope everything will goes well. my sister will know what i meant.

LOLOL! end of my fucked up post.