hey.

today marks the last day of school. And it is just the beginning of PROJECT HELL period.

i guess i will be busy with the projects for the next 2 weeks.

I think i need to go book my car FTT 2ml.

hmmmm, the paper today was rather okay i guess. lols.

Expected results:-

1) POM: A
2) Microecons: B
3) CSA: C
4) Accounting: Z

LOLOLOLOL. ok.

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lols. guess what? the fucking cold war is still on going. IM FINE with it. but my mother kept nagging at me. I feel that he is so. . . oh my god. ~_~

He say i everyday very late go home. Might as well he put me at one of his many subletted units in tampines. So I just live alone there. Actually i dont really mind. ~_~

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I feel that i seriously need an attitude adjustment. If I am not happy with something, it's all written on my face. And my body language will be like dictate: You better fuck off.

Haaa. Today was a really bad day for me I guess.

My bag is drenched with coke. And im making a big fuss out of it. I dont like my things to be dirty and sticky. seriously..

maybe because of this i pissed people off easily too.

I think I've changed. To live is to change, but is changes always beneficial? lols. i guess to me, changes is bad. People change into a better person. I think i've changed into a fucked up person.

I will try to control my temper and anger, and try to not write the feeelings on my face. I will try my hardest to conceal it.

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my mood is now super uncomfortable, unhappy, and i am upset. extremely.

I think i dont really care what people think about me, I'm an apathetic person.

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this is the third time i'm fucking editting this post.

i will need like a fucking channel to fucking hell channel all my unhappiness into it.

and tats blogging.

I feel that i've changed a lot.

I prefer my old-self. I'm much more happy-go-lucky, helpful, cheerful, self-less.

Now? I'm like apatheitc, selfish, attitude problem. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

ok, my heart is fucking hell aching right now.

I just feel like fucking hell shout out loud. LIKE FUCK THE EARTH.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I shouted in school today. I feel so much stress in me. Like my heartbeat just literally skipped a beat or so. It's not im feeling horny or whatever.

I just want to like cry out loud for god's sake. and let my tears squirt out from my eyes. but cannot.

I maybe joking and laughing outside, but im feeling so empty right now. seriously, i am empty.